Who doesn't love the holidays!

We are winding down from the holidays around here.  It has been a great break from school, and life, and just everything!  J actually took a week off and spent some good quality time with the little guy and I.  We spent time with both of our families and some friends but really just focused on us and our small little family. 

We did discuss work some times and J is thinking about making some changes to his company and line of work.  I am excited for him and scared at the same time.  Something has to give however as he can not continue to work 12-16 hour days.  He normally gets little time to see S and I, he wants to change that.

I am feeling better about work even though I would still like to be home with S.  After spending break with him I realize how little time I actually get to spend with him and what quality the time I do spend with him is.  One of my resolutions this year is to really just focus on him when we are together and not what I need to get done.  I don't normally make resolutions but this is more of a change of my ways than a simple forgotten goal.  I never want him to question what is more important to me.

I am looking forward to the new year and a lot of change for our little family.  I see great things for us this year :)  I hope the rest to everyone else. 

Update...kind of

I have not updated in so long that I have no idea where to begin.  Life has changed...a lot.  I am currently a 3rd year kindergarten teacher and love what I do.  I however have kind of been chosen by administration to be the example of what happens when you are not the brown nosing type :)  This in turn has maybe me re-evaluate how I feel about being in the public school setting.  I'm not fully certain of admins plans but I don't feel they will be keeping me on for next year.

My feelings on this you ask...completely torn.  I love teaching and working with students and well I have amazing co-workers!  However with all of the changes happening in the education field and with my situation I feel a choice is being made for me that is possibly for the best.  I just have to choose how I exit...

On the upside Justin, Scout and I are doing great.  I absolutely love being a mom...even to a stinkerish almost 2 year old!  He makes me laugh so hard daily, he also make me cry almost daily.  I am so emotional when it comes to him that I tear up pretty easily when he amazes me or gives me a huge squeeze and kiss out of the blue.  Justin is working his uhm, behind off,  I don't know how he is functioning.  I am so proud of him and his instinct to take care of Scout and I.  Even though losing my wages would hurt us a tad he says if I'm not happy something has too change.  The support helps me be a little more at ease.

Okay aside from that...the holidays are just around the corner.  Read, 2 weeks give or take!  I have not a decoration up, not a tree, a piece of tinsel, nada!  I have been so busy with work and wrapping up my masters that I just haven't got around to it yet.  This weekend is the weekend.  As for shopping well it may be on Christmas Eve lol :)  but no jokes it may be.

Well I should get off of here and go see what my masters homework asks of me this weekend, good night.

In a Family Way

Well it seems as if I am in a family way. I took a pregnancy test on Sat. April 22nd because in my gut something felt different. I was simply hoping for a longer LP and when I started have some odd symptoms such as extreme heartburn, and hunger I thought something might be up. I know they say how could you tell, well I really can't explain it but I knew when I took that test it was going to be positive.

I was home alone when I took the test and freaked out and went to find J who was fishing I told him that we needed to go to WB to get a digital because I had to see the word "pregnant" to believe it. So we did and when I took it with very diluted urine I still got a BFP very quickly! I was scared, shocked, uncertain and about 100 other emotions. Happiness came a little later after I had time to adjust to the idea. So far only J, my mom, and a friend know besides me.

I am not very far along, just about 5 weeks or so if FF was right on my O date and have not even scheduled a first visit, waiting till school gets out. I will tell people when I am around the 12week mark. NOw that I am overjoyed and excited I am worried something is going to go wrong, I guess I just have to kkeep with my usual thought...everything happens for a reason.

Well I am off for the evening I need to get some work done...report cards are due soon and I want to be ahead of the game. Goodnight!

So much for updating more often!

Well I will start off by making excuses for my lack of updates...I have been extremely busy with work and with household business. I am absolutely loving teaching full time and hope that something more permanent will happen for me this year. There are supposed to be quite a few retirements this year so hopefully mid to late summer I will have an interview and a job at the school where I am full time subbing now. I love that it keeps me busy and I don't even have time to think half of the time. Before I sat around whining about all of the things that weren't going how I wanted them too, now I just plain don't have the time.

As for J he is keeping busy. This is his high season so he better keep that hiney moving for now. WHen not selling he has been helping a buddy build a garage for a client, and of course fishing when time and weather permit.

I am still off of bc but are charting and taking OPK's to avoid getting pregnant....yes I know this is not the safest protection but it works. We plan to start trying in July. So it will be a rollercoater over the next few months.

Well I shall be going, I told Dh I woudl do some things around the house before my fun day of shopping with my mom tomorrow. SO I'm off!

Spring is here!

Today is my first day of Spring break and it is wonderful! Now I see what full time teachers look forward too. Oh by the way I am currently working full time in a teaching position, a teacher friend is ill and I am filling in for her....hopefully this will be mine in however I seriously question what is going on with our education system so I'm not holding my breath.

On another note the weather is beautiful outside! Gorgeous for the 2nd day of April. My birthday (3-31) was so nice and it is typically a last blast of winter so it was nice to grill out with the family. I am officially 26 years of age now...wow time really flies once you hit 21.

We had been thinking about holding off on TTC but when we got to thinking about how old we were going to be...yes I know 26 is not old...we decided this summer was it. We hope to possibly have 4 children, we shall see, so waiting much longer would have me pregnant into my late 30's.

Very few people know that we are going to start trying this summer (juneish). We have told my parents and a couple of close friends. But in this little town gossip spreads like a wildfire...before we even decided to TTC I had already heard that we were :)

Well that is all of an update for now I am going to try to be better about getting on here hopefully I can do that! Have a great day:)

let's see where things lead

Well things have been busy around here, kind of. We have been getting year end items ready so we can meet with the accountants and finish our taxes for the year. Justin has had the last week and a half off due to a lack on cookies, but will be very busy filling the stores up again for the next few weeks. It has been nice to spend so much time with him since we are both going to be very busy starting next week. He will be a cookie selling machine and I will be a teacher for the remainder of the school year. I was just asked to fill a long term sub position as a 2nd grade teacher in the school district I would love to get something full time in. Maybe this is what I need to get in. We have also been looking into other business options as Justin is not loving the cookie sales career and is wanting something more rewarding, he and his dad have been throwing some ideas around so maybe this year will bring some business change for us...who knows.

We have also decided that the last birth control pill I took on Saturday will most likely be the last unless I panic and go back on. We are hoping to try for a little one this summer. We are pretty sure july will be the month of TTC. So these next few month will be TTA by charting and using OPK's. Hope they work...we may employ other means of safety as well! Well there is my big update for now. Ihave lots more to say but am gettign quite tired tonight and must hit the hay...dentist bright and early in the morning :)

Thinking

I am always thinking, sometimes I wish it would stop... for just a few minutes anyways. I am currently unemployed and the market really doesn't look that great for my field. With that said I have been doing a lot of researching about possible business ventures. Now I do try to sell a few crafts(burp cloths) on Etsy, but sales are not hot I just don't really know how to market an online store I guess. But aside from this idea nothing has really come to mind that could be really great, until a couple of days ago.

Eco friendly cleaning.

That's right. This is my new idea. There are a few cleaning ladies in this area but no comapnies and none that use eco friendly cleaners. I'm thinking genius right? I don't know you tell me! J seems supportive enough seeing how there really is very little start up expenses. Think some flyers, business cards, website, initial batch of cleaning products and items. I currently have lots of time on my hands to do this. I help J with his business by doing all of the paperwork and checking and what not as well as by merchandising some of his stores but nothing that would inhibit a business chance. So I am running by thenest right now and seeing what the women over there say. My parents are of course supportive so I just need to do Little more research than this may be a go, check with me in a few! I have already suckered a good friend into designing all of my marketing items for me so that is awesome. Well off to research hope everyone is having a great day!