I'm so over PAPERWORK!

So the entire month of January is basically continual paperwork for me as I get our numbers together to send to the CPA for ...you guessed it, taxes.  This year has been much worse and it is my own fault, yep I'll own it.  After the fire I lost it, my mind, my ambition, my everything lol!  So I have had to put everything in the templates I created for our totals, etc...  

Well I'm happy to say that I am finished and caught up with this month already.  I'm feeling pretty proud:)   We've had some awesome things happen in the last week that I'll elaborate on later but it means I need to be on my best secretary game lol.  Well I'm off to make a delicious dinner of chicken Alfredo.  It's J's favorite

2013..a year in review

Well I have yet again disappeared from my blog life!  Amazing isn't it, sense the sarcasm.  I'm hoping to post more often and keep up to date with all of the fun happenings in our lives. 

Wow I am so happy to be done with 2103!!  I don't know what your year was like but good grief ours was everything it shouldn't have been.  I started 2013 miserable as I was in a position at work so uncomfortable I would of rather been forced to where g strings daily!  My principal continued to harass me and discredit my teaching skills, I will in defense of myself say that my students were doing amazing she just didn't like what she was seeing.  Really that is a good enough reason to let a person go??  Well just before spring break I was called to her office with my union rep so I could get the official word that I would not be asked to return for the new school year.  Whew did that take a huge weight off of my shoulders!  I could eat again and breath again..no really I was having so much anxiety breather was a rather big job.  I had managed to drop 30 pounds below my normal weight in just 2 years of being harassed.  I left in June with my things in tow with a smile on my face.  Ahhhh..

I took over my husbands paperwork and went to raising our son full time.  My husband while upset over the treatment at work and the stress it had placed on me seems happy to have me at home now.  However after the calm of June and July our world would be rocked again by a house fire on August 28th (my parents wedding anniversary).  I came home to smoke coming out of the roof line.  I have never felt so out of control of my own life than in that moment.  I had been gone for 3 hours.,..3 hours, how could this happen.  While I screamed for my sweet furbabies to come to the door my mom called the fire dept. and my 2.5 year sat in the back seat staring.  It was so out of body as I ran around the house trying to get the girls to come to every window, every door with no response.  I knew that they were gone but couldn't accept it.  I had my mom leave with S and take him to her place just down the road so he would see very little of what was to come...cops, fire trucks, gawkers, and our beloved dogs being carried lifeless from the house we called home.  Everything was a total loss.  TOTAL LOSS.  That breathing and eating issue I was having early in the year suddenly returned.  We spent the next few days moving in with my parents, hiring companies to help with the details and fighting with our home insurance...you must fight with them or get nothing.   Yourwhole life has been flipped upside down and you must argue for everything that you've been paying for, for the last 12 years of your life!

I must mention we had always just set the concrete forms as were getting ready to pour concrete for our new 2400 sq. ft. warehouse just down the road on other property we own.  We decided to see the silver lining in the fire and added a living quarter above part of the warehouse.  We have enjoyed our time with my parents and I think Scout will be sad to leave when we are finished.  As will we, my parents are amazing and super easy to get along with, I think even my husband would agree with this :)   I' m sure by know you're thinking wow what a year good thing it was almost over....NOPE!  We would again be tossed onto a roller coaster as we receive a call from his home healthcare nurse that she can't get ito the house and sees my grandpa laying on the floor.  We raced over and I called the hubby on the way, he and some friends managed to break into the house so we could get to him.   He had a massive stroke with no hope of recovery.  He passed away 3 days later.  He and I were not close in fact he was very unkind to me (my family says it is because I look so much like my grandma) but he was amazing to my little guy and for that I loved him.  the following week would be crazy hectic as we said goodbye to my grandpa with showings and a funeral service on Wednesday and decorated our new place for my brothers wedding that Saturday!  The rest of the year was LOW KEY!  Thank goodness.  SO that is my year 2013 in recap. 

We also had many amazing things happen in 2013 so don't go feeling bad for me lol!  I hope to spend the upcoming year sharing our amazing moments, family times, recipes tried, crafts conquered and so on with you.  Please join for the ride:)

Who doesn't love the holidays!

We are winding down from the holidays around here.  It has been a great break from school, and life, and just everything!  J actually took a week off and spent some good quality time with the little guy and I.  We spent time with both of our families and some friends but really just focused on us and our small little family. 

We did discuss work some times and J is thinking about making some changes to his company and line of work.  I am excited for him and scared at the same time.  Something has to give however as he can not continue to work 12-16 hour days.  He normally gets little time to see S and I, he wants to change that.

I am feeling better about work even though I would still like to be home with S.  After spending break with him I realize how little time I actually get to spend with him and what quality the time I do spend with him is.  One of my resolutions this year is to really just focus on him when we are together and not what I need to get done.  I don't normally make resolutions but this is more of a change of my ways than a simple forgotten goal.  I never want him to question what is more important to me.

I am looking forward to the new year and a lot of change for our little family.  I see great things for us this year :)  I hope the rest to everyone else. 

Update...kind of

I have not updated in so long that I have no idea where to begin.  Life has changed...a lot.  I am currently a 3rd year kindergarten teacher and love what I do.  I however have kind of been chosen by administration to be the example of what happens when you are not the brown nosing type :)  This in turn has maybe me re-evaluate how I feel about being in the public school setting.  I'm not fully certain of admins plans but I don't feel they will be keeping me on for next year.

My feelings on this you ask...completely torn.  I love teaching and working with students and well I have amazing co-workers!  However with all of the changes happening in the education field and with my situation I feel a choice is being made for me that is possibly for the best.  I just have to choose how I exit...

On the upside Justin, Scout and I are doing great.  I absolutely love being a mom...even to a stinkerish almost 2 year old!  He makes me laugh so hard daily, he also make me cry almost daily.  I am so emotional when it comes to him that I tear up pretty easily when he amazes me or gives me a huge squeeze and kiss out of the blue.  Justin is working his uhm, behind off,  I don't know how he is functioning.  I am so proud of him and his instinct to take care of Scout and I.  Even though losing my wages would hurt us a tad he says if I'm not happy something has too change.  The support helps me be a little more at ease.

Okay aside from that...the holidays are just around the corner.  Read, 2 weeks give or take!  I have not a decoration up, not a tree, a piece of tinsel, nada!  I have been so busy with work and wrapping up my masters that I just haven't got around to it yet.  This weekend is the weekend.  As for shopping well it may be on Christmas Eve lol :)  but no jokes it may be.

Well I should get off of here and go see what my masters homework asks of me this weekend, good night.

In a Family Way

Well it seems as if I am in a family way. I took a pregnancy test on Sat. April 22nd because in my gut something felt different. I was simply hoping for a longer LP and when I started have some odd symptoms such as extreme heartburn, and hunger I thought something might be up. I know they say how could you tell, well I really can't explain it but I knew when I took that test it was going to be positive.

I was home alone when I took the test and freaked out and went to find J who was fishing I told him that we needed to go to WB to get a digital because I had to see the word "pregnant" to believe it. So we did and when I took it with very diluted urine I still got a BFP very quickly! I was scared, shocked, uncertain and about 100 other emotions. Happiness came a little later after I had time to adjust to the idea. So far only J, my mom, and a friend know besides me.

I am not very far along, just about 5 weeks or so if FF was right on my O date and have not even scheduled a first visit, waiting till school gets out. I will tell people when I am around the 12week mark. NOw that I am overjoyed and excited I am worried something is going to go wrong, I guess I just have to kkeep with my usual thought...everything happens for a reason.

Well I am off for the evening I need to get some work done...report cards are due soon and I want to be ahead of the game. Goodnight!

So much for updating more often!

Well I will start off by making excuses for my lack of updates...I have been extremely busy with work and with household business. I am absolutely loving teaching full time and hope that something more permanent will happen for me this year. There are supposed to be quite a few retirements this year so hopefully mid to late summer I will have an interview and a job at the school where I am full time subbing now. I love that it keeps me busy and I don't even have time to think half of the time. Before I sat around whining about all of the things that weren't going how I wanted them too, now I just plain don't have the time.

As for J he is keeping busy. This is his high season so he better keep that hiney moving for now. WHen not selling he has been helping a buddy build a garage for a client, and of course fishing when time and weather permit.

I am still off of bc but are charting and taking OPK's to avoid getting pregnant....yes I know this is not the safest protection but it works. We plan to start trying in July. So it will be a rollercoater over the next few months.

Well I shall be going, I told Dh I woudl do some things around the house before my fun day of shopping with my mom tomorrow. SO I'm off!

Spring is here!

Today is my first day of Spring break and it is wonderful! Now I see what full time teachers look forward too. Oh by the way I am currently working full time in a teaching position, a teacher friend is ill and I am filling in for her....hopefully this will be mine in however I seriously question what is going on with our education system so I'm not holding my breath.

On another note the weather is beautiful outside! Gorgeous for the 2nd day of April. My birthday (3-31) was so nice and it is typically a last blast of winter so it was nice to grill out with the family. I am officially 26 years of age now...wow time really flies once you hit 21.

We had been thinking about holding off on TTC but when we got to thinking about how old we were going to be...yes I know 26 is not old...we decided this summer was it. We hope to possibly have 4 children, we shall see, so waiting much longer would have me pregnant into my late 30's.

Very few people know that we are going to start trying this summer (juneish). We have told my parents and a couple of close friends. But in this little town gossip spreads like a wildfire...before we even decided to TTC I had already heard that we were :)

Well that is all of an update for now I am going to try to be better about getting on here hopefully I can do that! Have a great day:)

let's see where things lead

Well things have been busy around here, kind of. We have been getting year end items ready so we can meet with the accountants and finish our taxes for the year. Justin has had the last week and a half off due to a lack on cookies, but will be very busy filling the stores up again for the next few weeks. It has been nice to spend so much time with him since we are both going to be very busy starting next week. He will be a cookie selling machine and I will be a teacher for the remainder of the school year. I was just asked to fill a long term sub position as a 2nd grade teacher in the school district I would love to get something full time in. Maybe this is what I need to get in. We have also been looking into other business options as Justin is not loving the cookie sales career and is wanting something more rewarding, he and his dad have been throwing some ideas around so maybe this year will bring some business change for us...who knows.

We have also decided that the last birth control pill I took on Saturday will most likely be the last unless I panic and go back on. We are hoping to try for a little one this summer. We are pretty sure july will be the month of TTC. So these next few month will be TTA by charting and using OPK's. Hope they work...we may employ other means of safety as well! Well there is my big update for now. Ihave lots more to say but am gettign quite tired tonight and must hit the hay...dentist bright and early in the morning :)

Thinking

I am always thinking, sometimes I wish it would stop... for just a few minutes anyways. I am currently unemployed and the market really doesn't look that great for my field. With that said I have been doing a lot of researching about possible business ventures. Now I do try to sell a few crafts(burp cloths) on Etsy, but sales are not hot I just don't really know how to market an online store I guess. But aside from this idea nothing has really come to mind that could be really great, until a couple of days ago.

Eco friendly cleaning.

That's right. This is my new idea. There are a few cleaning ladies in this area but no comapnies and none that use eco friendly cleaners. I'm thinking genius right? I don't know you tell me! J seems supportive enough seeing how there really is very little start up expenses. Think some flyers, business cards, website, initial batch of cleaning products and items. I currently have lots of time on my hands to do this. I help J with his business by doing all of the paperwork and checking and what not as well as by merchandising some of his stores but nothing that would inhibit a business chance. So I am running by thenest right now and seeing what the women over there say. My parents are of course supportive so I just need to do Little more research than this may be a go, check with me in a few! I have already suckered a good friend into designing all of my marketing items for me so that is awesome. Well off to research hope everyone is having a great day!

Awesome Dinner

Okay so I hardly ever cook, not that I don't want to I just don't have much practice and most things seem to come out...not so good. Well tonight I made and old stand by from mom. Weinie wraps. Hot dog cut in 1/2 with half a slice of cheese wrapped in a croissant. Bake according to croissant directions = awesomeness! I served with J's favorite shells and cheese and green beans for something a little healthy! It was seriously delicious. J was like wow thse are good, I asked him if he thought they weren't going to be with the suprise in his voice :) HIs dad was here and seemed to enjoy them as well. Well I am off for the night, bath time. Wishing everyone a warm and happy evening.

Love family night

So usually once a week or at most every two weeks we have familt night with my parents and little brother. He is not so little but will always be my little! J and I always go over there as there is just more room. My mom made pizza tonight and we watched the Hangover. It was HILARIOUS, yes shouting that! I have not laughed so hard in a long time, very unrealistic but still funny. The whole family was cracking up. I love these kind of nights. We also took with us a good friend and our girls (furbabies) they love to get out of the house and love to see everyone else. So it was a nice group of us. I am on homebody so I love to do things either at our home or at home (my parents) so movie night is always good for me plus we are trying to stay on budget and doing thinggs like this is much more budget friendly! Well I am off for the night, going to go surf for some craft blogs. Night everyone!

Last Holiday

So we just got back from our last Holiday celebration of the season. My dads side of the family. I know I shouldn't favor one side over the other but this has always been my favorite. Until my grandma passed away however. She was the center of our family keeping everything running smoothly. Holidays were always at grandma and grandpas and Christmas was always celebrated on the Eve with this side. Since my grandmas passing 4 years ago our family has just turned into something I'm not very happy with. Nothing is the same. Two of the families have divorced which is so sad for so many reasons, this also causes us to have to work so hard to arrange a date that works for everyone. We used to draw names, now we play dirty santa, I don't really care for this game I like to by a gift for someone in particualr so I know I'm getting something that will be truly enjoyed and used. And well some of the new additions to the family don't mesh well with the rest of the family so it can get a bit strained :( But I mostly hate it because it reminds me that my grandma is not coming back and that things will never be the same. I hate this.

Overall though the night went well and we all seemed to have a decent time. J, my parents and my brother were all there, along with my little cousins to that is what is importnat to me!

Well I am going to call it an evening, hope everyone is having a nice night.

It's been a while

Wow, has life really been so busy as to where I could not update my blog from time to time? Nope, I have just been super lazy about it :) We have however been finishing up lots of little things around here in hopes that we will be able to sell early this spring/summer. We just built a new garage, and I'm glad to say it is mostly done, Justin is just working on a few things inside now. I had this notion in my head that it would just take a month or so...I mean it's just a garage right. Yep no way. Started in October just finished in December so a full 2 months and some days. But it looks great and adds a lot to the home and our property.

I in the mean time have taken up the hobby of sewing...yep i'm a beginner :) I have been sewing a ton of burp cloths, and if I do say so myself they are quite adorable. I have tons of friends who are pregnant and I like to give gifts which are useful as well as cute! So I love hte idea of homemade items. This is going to be one of hte new additions to me baby baskets that I give as gifts. They are super adorable, I shall post a picture one of these days. I plan to sell them on etsy as a little side cash but we'll see how that goes.

So how was everyones holidays? We had a very good holiday season this year, lots of friends and family around. Instead of wasting money on pointless gifts this year I made sweet baskets for those that we would normally gift to. I made oreo truffles (they were the biggest hit) chow mein clusters, frosted cream cheese sugar cookies, puppy chow, and mini turtles. I have received lots of feedback on how yummy everything was so I believe this shall be my new holiday plan. Every year I will do baskets of useful and enjoyable gifts, mostly edible of course!
Over Christmas we had friends staying with us, the day after Christmas she took a pregnancy test and I was lucky one to be able to tell her "YOUR PREGNANT!" and yes I did yell it. It was quite awesome to be able to tell someone something that htey have wanted to hear for quite some time. I know it is something neither of us will ever forget.

Well I must be going for the evening, I'm going to do a little sewing and then J and I will be going to my parents for pizza and movie night. Tonights movie "The Hangover" Hope it is as good as hte reviews have been.

Good Night.

Can't Sleep

Well the hubby is out of town again and guess what....I can't sleep when he is gone. I sleep on the couch in and out. I usually look at the clock every hour and a half or so :( yeah it sucks. So now I am killing time online just surfin around! It's still early yet so I've got time before I hit the couch and crash. I have two dogs but still just can't sleep well.

So lets see my week has been boring...well I went shopping with mom yesterday that is always fun...my mom is my bff :) no seriously. We had a good time I bought a work out dvd...tried it this morning. OUCH. I'm way more out of shape then I thought. Hubbs says you'll get there don't worry. I responded with incontrollable laughs!

Well I have a few sub jobs lined up for the next couple of months hopefully they'll start flowing in soon. Could really use the cashola!

Well I should try and take a nap while I feel tired. night night all!

the weekend...

So this past weekend was very nice...my hubby was off from Wednesday til yesterday, it's so nice to spend time with him. Usually he is out of town a couple days of week limiting our time. We also had friends up for the weekend..actually J's best bud...the went fishing like every day! Had dinner with both sides on the family throughout the weekend and played a few games. The weather was wonderful for the holiday and I hope all of the city people enjoyed their time at their cabins or camping!

Sad now though...another school year has started and well another for me without a full time teaching job. I have been out of school now for 2 years :( I was hoping to have gotten a job right out of college so I could work then building up a nest egg so I could stop working once we have children. NOT going to happen. I'll be working for sure unless hubbys business starts doing a lot better! He already works his fanny off though. Just felt like whining a little bit :)

Well I have a positive today I'm going to dinner with a few friends today so that shall be nice.

I am out for now enjoy your day!

Its been awhile

We have been so busy around here. Trying to make sure that our relatively new business survives this downfall in the environment...hard work...thank good for my hubby, he is such a hard worker. We are also trying to sell our house so we have been doing all sorts of things to spruce it up. We actually had a showing on Thursday and have another Sunday! WOOHOO! While remaining optimisitc I will say that I understand just because a couple people look doesn't mean it is going to sell but it is a step in the right direction. We are going to do a couple of things today so we will be off soon! Can't remember if I updated on the knitting...I will be returning the knitting kit tomorrow...way to hard. I think I am going to try sewing...pillows, etc... will see. Well I am off for the day to accomplish somethings..wish me well!

Not so easy

The night was long I sleep so crappy when J is out of town..thank god he'll be home tonight so I can get some sleep. While I was sitting around last night and againthis morning I tried my hand at what I am hoping will be my new hobby. I am usually a quick learner I try something I get. I self taught through a lot of college classes and thought this would be so easy. It's not. Knitting... to those of you who do you seriously are awesome it is very hard or at least for now it is. I am going to keep trying but goodness. Today is proving to be quite boring...it is chilly out here (big suprise) and raining :( however I have gotten quite a bit done today; laundry, floors, windows, and boile dsome chicken for salads and what not. I'm going to go drum up something to do but will probably be bcak to whine about my boredom!

night alone

So I have the night to myself. J is out of town for the night so I've spent some time doing random things. Mom and I went shopping picked up a few things for a couple of baby showers I have over the next few weekends...I'm always a little bummed when doing this, just wishing we could start trying...I know I know it will be worth the wait. I also however picked up a how to knitting set and some lovely yarn. I was thinking I might try my hand at knitting. We'll see how the night goes as well as the knitting:)

Here it goes...

Well I have spent some time lurking on a few website, mainly the bump.com , I am slightly obsessed with starting a family! However it is not the right time for us so we are waiting:( Which is especially difficult for me because I am currently a stay at home wife waiting for a teaching job to open in our area. However I have learned a lot from the ladies that inhabit those boards. After reading the many blogs on there I decided to create my own. So here is the beginnings of what I'm sure will turn into my little place to whine, rant and just be me! I hope you enjoy!